The day has come that I have dreaded since I found out we were going to have a baby . . . the day that my precious little girl would leave me . . . ok, she isn't getting married (although I hear that that will be here before I know it), no, tomorrow Ellie Grace becomes a kindergartener!!!!!!!!! I can remember people visiting us in the hospital oohing and aahing over our new little baby girl and telling us how quickly the time would go . . . well, unfortunately, they were all right!!!!! But, why??? Why does the time have to go so quickly? Why can't I just bottle her up and leave her right where she is? My dear friend, Abby, in her godliness, reminded me that it is our job to raise our children to leave! What????? I've repressed that part, but she is so right! God has given us these precious gifts and it is our responsibility to raise them and teach them how to be responsible, God-fearing adults. That doesn't make this transition any easier!
I am so thankful that my babies have been born in the late winter/early spring - that means that I get to have them at home a little bit longer!!! I have really been in denial about this whole kindergarten thing - I've done the fun stuff willingly - the shopping and stuff, but tomorrow the reality will hit me whether I am ready or not . . . tomorrow we will walk our little girl into the school and hand her off to a teacher that we barely know. I am . . . trusting God for each moment - as I write this I can barely see - my eyes are filled with tears - what will tomorrow be like????? I was thinking today that for the past 5 years 5 months and 1 day Ellie Grace and I have been together (minus a few days here and there) - we have done everything together! 24/7 - 365 we've been together! And now there is going to be a 3 hour and 20 minute period of time where she will be somewhere without me . . . I know that she will have a wonderful time and this will be a great time of learning (for both of us), but it is weird to think that she won't be with me in the mornings.
What am I thankful for???
- All of the sweet memories I have made with Ellie
- That I have been able to be home with her since she was born.
- That she is a sweet and loving little girl who loves Jesus and is excited for school and learning.
- That I get to spend some time with Lily alone before baby #3 joins us.
- That Ellie's school welcomes parent helpers! Got my TB test! I will be there!
- For friends like Abby who remind me that God has given me these gifts and it is our job, as parents, to train them to leave.
- That Ellie knows to eat the healthy snack first and then the unhealthy one (little things we've been talking about - so silly, I know)
- That we have so many more wonderful memories to make!!!!
- For each and every stage that she has gone through - each one has been better than the last - she is a real delight to my heart.
- I love mornings - when the girls come out of their rooms and snuggle with us . . . so precious - I guess that will have to be relegated to the weekends.
- That God blessed me with my sweet girls . . . they are truly a heritage from the Lord
Here are a few pics of Ellie through the years!
3 comments:
Ok, seriously, KILL me!! That was so precious and so sad and THANKS for the DEPRESSING song to go along with it!! I will be sobbing along with you tomorrow!! So glad we can go on this difficult yet wonderful journey together!
I didn't think I would feel so torn about Lucas leaving for school either (he is just going to preschool 3 days a week) but you are right, it STINKS! Their little hearts are so precious, it's hard to live with the fact that he will have influences outside of our little circle of friends. But yes, we must trust God. He loves them more than we do.
Can't wait to see pic's from the 1st day of school!
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